The Death of Miah Old Self#
This is kinda a sad story, but one that I feel needs to be more than just told. It NEEDS to be UnderStood. I honestly believe that these events had to happen Exactly as they did and for good reason. For one, I would not be writing this right now had they not. Nor would I see the world the way that I do now. There’s a good quote that goes along with this:
If you change the way you look at things…
The things you look at will change… –Wayne W. Dyer
And so they have… And so they have. The world has not changed all that drastically since I first read that quote. But the way that I now look at the world most certainly has. The thing is though, before the accident occured, I had known something bad was coming. I was almost in tears when I tried to tell my girlfriend and brother-from-another-mother at the time. I had told them both that I had a message to tell someone. They both asked me what the message was, and I replied, “I don’t know.” Then they asked who the message was for. Again, I replied, “I don’t know.”
But you see, it was not just knowing that something bad was going to happen. It was also knowing that no matter what I did… No matter how hard I tried to figure out what it was and avoid it… It was going to happen anyways. Like “Final Destination” there is no escaping Death.
This was nowhere near the first time I have had glimpses of the future. I had one time even gotten aggritated with being able to know things were coming, but not being able to do anything about them. I had told the big man to just take it away from me, since it did not do me any good. And he did. For quite a while. Until I had found out that I would still rather know ahead of time. That way I could brace Mice Elf atleast. But this time was different. It was intense, and I knew it was going to be a big one this time. And like I said, I knew that no matter what I did, it was going to happen. And soon.
Now I know that people claiming to have gifts like these often seem unbelievable. Hell, there was a brief period that I Mice Elf thought I was going crazy. Followed by yet another brief period to where I wished that I was just going crazy. That would have been alot easier to deal with, let me tell you! Unfortunately, I am probably one of the most sanest of people, that you will ever meet. Albiet you probably won’t see me act like it very often. Although the majority of that, I believe, is due to me being a Heyoka Empath. I am also an Aquarius, an [INTJ](/catagories/INTJ/, as well as an AuDHDer to top it all off! If you even briefly study each of those, you would see that I am a PerfectLee normal – abnormal person!