NonVerbal autistics know things we don’t…#
For one, talking now and days is pretty much a total waste of time. IF you get someone to listen to you… The chances of them actually caring about what you are saying, is slim to none as it is. At least that is how I feel about the subject as of recently. And that is not even including what I like to call; The Autistic-Allistic Barrier . My communication style gets me in trouble more often than I even care to admit. It has actually gotten me into trouble just recently… Again. These are just some of the things that make keeping a job rather difficult for someone with AuDHD. But as I have come to learn, it is not ALL our fault.
We should not have to…#
Feel Ashamed for Who we Are…#
Have to *Act* like SomeOne that We are NOT…#
The phrase, “I correct you” still reverberates through my skull Every Time I get anywhere near this topic. The audacity of some people… I am an INTJ, an Aquarius, an AuDHDer, and most likely a Heyoka… Each and every one of those are known for their arrogance. I was even considered to have a god complex at one point. But I do not EVER recall feeling like I was above anyone. Who is to say that the way I do things is correct and theirs is not? And that is exactly what she had said to me when she said, “I correct you.”
I still thank the Big Man for Alexithymia and Adderall nearly every day! Alexithymia can actually be quite the blessing from time to time. Although I have just this moment realized that it contributes to some of my Analysis Paralysis. As I sat here for several minutes in a paralyzed state. I am pretty sure that my brain was trying to figure out what to do with the emotions that this topic had made me feel. But again I say, they are not the feelings that I used to have. I used to hold resentments and anger towards people for doing less than that, but not anymore. Now I spend time trying to figure out how I can get my message through to them. Without insulting them, by them taking it the wrong way! It really is exhausting!